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temporary tattoo [Apr. 3rd, 2007|12:03 pm]
Roy Janik
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I am destroying myself for my art, and I still cringe when I call it that. it gets no respect. its audience exists as a potential, not as something physical. and that is heartbreaking when everything you create is gone the moment you create it. When I am not performing, I am rehearsing. When I am not rehearsing, I am planning. scheming. promoting. updating. submitting. cajoling. pleading. smoothing. worrying.

I am okay with this. as long as we're in it together, i will go forever. but i still yearn for the pay-off. the turning people away from the door. the energy that comes with a packed house. the glow that comes from a stranger saying:

"Yes, I saw it, too. And it was good."
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2007-04-03 05:19 pm (UTC)
man, I need more sleep. i hardly capitalized anything.
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From: hetchjay
2007-04-03 05:23 pm (UTC)
I remember JS used to point out that what we did with the Knighthood was also ephemeral, and thus wanted to do more music/sketch comedy style projects.

Somehow it's never really bothered me (that with live unrecorded performance art, destruction is concomitant to creation).

The UCB theater here in New York is pretty amazing. Usually I'm not into improv, but their house teams have usually been quite impressive.
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2007-04-03 05:25 pm (UTC)
The ephemeral nature doesn't bother me either. It's one of the things I love about improv. But if hardly any one sees it, it's a shame. At least with the Knighthood, we forced ourselves upon our audience.

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From: hetchjay
2007-04-03 05:38 pm (UTC)
Ah, yes, I see what you mean.

I went to an improv show at the Magnet Theater here in New York, mere blocks from the UCB theater and seemingly succesful from the building location/size/facade and website, and yet on a Saturday night it was pretty quiet (10 people or so who weren't on one of the two teams were there). It was pretty surpising.

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From: hetchjay
2007-04-03 05:38 pm (UTC)
(In contrast, I have never been to a non-packed UCB theatre show)
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[User Picture]From: jerseytude
2007-04-03 10:07 pm (UTC)
The ephemeral nature of improv bugs me, actually. Sure, I was working through personal problems but one of the things about Joost was to have a living record of Improv...
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[User Picture]From: vyvyanbasterd
2007-04-03 06:02 pm (UTC)
Something I had to come to grips with was the permanent tiny audience for anything I genuinely cared about. Once I did that, I realized that I should be doing art for art's sake (or at least my own satisfaction), not for the reception.
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From: hetchjay
2007-04-03 07:27 pm (UTC)
That reminds of this thing I read yesterday:

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"And lastly, this quote, attributed to David Foster Wallace, is dead on:

'TV is not vulgar and prurient and dumb because the people who compose the audience are vulgar and dumb. Television is the way it is simply because people tend to be extremely similar in their vulgar and prurient and dumb interests and wildly different in their refined and aesthetic and noble interests.'"
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[User Picture]From: g0_0n
2007-04-03 08:41 pm (UTC)
wut aboot ppl that lik to fuk horses
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[User Picture]From: tomtomtomtomtom
2007-04-03 07:32 pm (UTC)
That's one of the things that really depresses me about continuing in mathematics. I'm positive I'll never be a mathematical superstar, so pretty much all I can hope for is one theorem that gets quoted occasionally. I think that's one of the (many) reasons lots of mathematicians like teaching: it's one of the few outlets for our voracious egos.
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[User Picture]From: eva_bellatrix
2007-04-03 08:06 pm (UTC)
You're OUR mathematical superstar, Tom. Don't forget that.
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[User Picture]From: cailin23
2007-04-03 08:14 pm (UTC)
if only you looked as good in a bikini as danica mckellar.
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[User Picture]From: tomtomtomtomtom
2007-04-03 08:22 pm (UTC)
no matter how many times you beg i am not unlocking my danica mckeller flickr to the public
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[User Picture]From: kbadr
2007-04-03 06:50 pm (UTC)
Soon, my friend. Soon. We're at the tipping point.
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2007-04-03 08:21 pm (UTC)
Let's tip already.
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[User Picture]From: g0_0n
2007-04-03 07:04 pm (UTC)
I remember one of my high school English teachers (who fittingly was also our Philosophy teacher,) was absolutely convinced that the only reason art and artists existed because man strives to immortalize himself.
So anyway, he would go off one big rants about this. I still get so angry thinking that he really believed that (and everything he said) was an ultimatum.

Im sure some people make art because they seek immortal recognition - but hey - did this teacher ever stop to think some people do creative things that they enjoy to keep from getting really fucking bored?

I guess next time a make a doodle I should slap my right hand with my left one for being arrogant..
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[User Picture]From: cailin23
2007-04-03 07:57 pm (UTC)
is it even possible to achieve a high level of success (which you seem to measure by audience size) in improv in austin? i mean, i guess there's a burgeoning scene, but it seems you'll always be limited by the number of people who are even interested in seeing improv. you can't sqeeze blood from a turnip.
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2007-04-03 08:21 pm (UTC)
That's the challenge. The scene is growing, as is attention and press related to it. What we're struggling with now is 1) getting the word out, 2) making sure that when people do come to see shows that they're blown away and want to come back.

So yeah, the onus is on us to make people want to see improv.
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[User Picture]From: vyvyanbasterd
2007-04-03 08:35 pm (UTC)
Something else to consider (which may not be practical, financially): if you are regularly doing shows weekly, people will take that for granted. If you make it to be a "once a month" or "every other week" kind of thing, people will think it is more special. This has been my experience, at least.
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[User Picture]From: bellatrixamici
2007-04-03 08:44 pm (UTC)
This is true. Our audience probably takes it for granted that we play every week and they can always "catch us next time."
I don't think that means we should cut back by any means.
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[User Picture]From: vyvyanbasterd
2007-04-03 08:49 pm (UTC)
I agree, and branding yourselves distinctly for various shows will go a long way. It's a difficult situation.
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[User Picture]From: bellatrixamici
2007-04-03 08:34 pm (UTC)
We are in it together.
The pay-off has happened before and it will happen again.
We're focused and devoted and it has payed off, we've all seen it pay-off. And it will happen again.
Do not worry, love.
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2007-04-04 07:37 pm (UTC)
I'm not that worried. And I know we're in it together. Thanks.
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