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jam and experience. [Jun. 13th, 2007|01:30 am]
Roy Janik
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Tonight's Improv Jam, which Kareem and I have sort of taken over heading from Wes, was fun. But I realized some stuff about myself. Some experienced improv instructors were there... Jeremy, Shana, and Asaf, and I was totally intimidated. Ordinarily, I'd roll into new exercises and warmups with confidence, but I was afraid of being judged for some reason. And whenever I gave notes or expounded on some element of improv, I was worried that they might not approve of what I was saying, or whatever.

I need to learn to apply the same level of confidence I have in performing improv to leading/directing it.

[User Picture]From: fattony
2007-06-13 07:07 am (UTC)
I think everyone in group one greatly benefited from your scene starts exercise. and wasn't breaking up into groups your idea? The other instructors trusted you enough to let you lead your own group because they respect/love/want-to-be you.

Also, I agree with your note during what comes next about not going meta...its just that someone else had already gone meta, and i tried to make the game going as meta as possible, it just didn't catch on.

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From: shannonlucas
2007-06-13 01:20 pm (UTC)
That feeling is normal, and everyone feels it whether they want to admit it or not. Unfortunately, knowing that doesn't make it easier to deal with.

Try not to think of yourself as being judged. Our culture places a negative connotation on 'judged.' Try to think of yourself as being observed and critiqued, which is what's actually going on, and it isn't the same thing as being judged.

There's also a good chance that the senior instructors have more confidence in your abilities than you do. If they didn't, I don't think you'd have been leading the Improv Jam.

Whenever we have an interest we're passionate about and have to stand next to someone else with that interest who we look up to and whose work we know is excellent, we will feel some inadequacy. In some cases, their natural talent or experience may make them impossible to catch up with until they die, but that's nothing to be let down by.

Let me see if I can make this make sense...

Anna, a Pulitzer Prize winning journalist, may not view the new hire from college, Tim, as having the same skill level, but she can still have a lot of respect for his abilities.

The more experienced improv folks don't expect you to be performing at their level, and you shouldn't expect that of yourself either. All you really need to know is that they respect your abilities. Given that your leading these sessions, I think they do.

Bah. I'm rambling.
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[User Picture]From: sadogre
2007-06-13 05:47 pm (UTC)
At this point, you're entering salty veteran territory yourself. You shouldn't feel intimidated. Which of course is easier said than done. But realizing that begins to qualify one as, in fact, a salty veteran.
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