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I'm a million different people from one day to the next [Jan. 16th, 2001|02:17 am]
Roy Janik
When I was young, I wrote a letter to my future self. In it, I basically laid down my basic principles of life, and forbade myself from ever changing. Click on the small images for the full pages.

Since then, I've learned to accept change and realize that it's a necessary part of growing. But this letter has always disturbed me. I finally have the strength to answer it:

The original rough draft of my response simply read "Piss off".

[User Picture]From: somabrak
2001-01-16 06:35 am (UTC)


I really enjoyed this, Roy...Very cool thing to do.

I especially like dragonfly on Tare's head.
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2001-01-16 03:33 pm (UTC)

Re: Wow.

You should see my other stationary, by the way. It's got little Tare Pandas reclining of leafs. Very "girly".
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[User Picture]From: nekomouser
2001-01-16 10:49 am (UTC)

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a bitch, something something...

This was the saddest thing I read all day. Another knight driven to his knees. But knowledge is power too and that is what change and growth are bourne of. Let the dawne come anew and rise like a pheonix from your self-same pyre. It's all any of us can do, but somehow more than most of us ever achieve. Don't dwell on what was or what might have been, you'll only destroy yourself.
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2001-01-16 11:45 am (UTC)

Re: I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a bitch, something something...

Bullshit. Not sad at all. Very very good. I will stand upright and never go down again. But I must be willing to bend, to change, and to be happy with that... never losing my footing, but being able to dodge the bullets that come my way, and climb ever upward.
Furthermore, I've got to focus on the happiness of myself and that of my loved ones before I take on the world. Is that so wrong? If I am not whole, I cannot expect to help the world become so.
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[User Picture]From: cindylou
2001-01-16 01:44 pm (UTC)

i really admire you, roy. i don't know if that counts for anything, but i just wanted you to know this.

good things are ahead for you...
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2001-01-16 03:35 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Cindy. I hope you are right. For the most part, my life has been filled with joy. Here's hoping that's the overwhelming trend, and not just the first act.
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From: artsyvenus
2001-01-16 09:41 pm (UTC)
Wow. I love the idea of the letters. Makes me want to compose one of my own. I could use it as a reminder to keep cool when those moments strike which cause me to act irrationally, and do or say things which I later regret. It's also a good way to keep track of who you really are, despite that people are forever changing.
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2001-01-17 06:03 pm (UTC)
That's what I use livejournal for now. I'm dumping EVERYTHING into it, at different levels of privacy. Ideas, to-do lists, logs of how much I weigh each day. A wealth of meaningless Roy-related information.
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[User Picture]From: moregankira
2001-01-17 04:39 pm (UTC)

Being Roy

Roy, geesh... you will always remain one of my favorite people because of your ability to always being true to yourself.
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2001-01-17 05:59 pm (UTC)

Re: Being Roy

Which is odd, because oftentimes I feel like I mold myself to fit those around me. Maybe they're just surface changes.
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[User Picture]From: nekomouser
2001-01-17 06:23 pm (UTC)

A roy is boy, no ploy, how coy...

Yeah, but it is still very disconcerting when you stand in front of a tree to long and your skin starts to turn green. It messes with me.
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[User Picture]From: nekomouser
2001-01-17 06:28 pm (UTC)

And no one can talk to the Iroquois?

Of course, that's still not as bad as when you bump into Hispanics and speak fluent spanish, or order in flawless japanese at all those sushi places while making conversation with someone else in exact Manchurian chinese. Anf the french and Russian and Italian...but maybe these too are just surface changes. I just feel so left out becuase I only speak Esperanto (sp.?)
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2001-01-17 06:39 pm (UTC)

Re: And no one can talk to the Iroquois?

¿Sabe Usted Esperanto?
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[User Picture]From: zinereem
2001-01-18 09:44 pm (UTC)

Re: What would you do if I kicked Fred Savage in the Ass

Amazing, neh? I really wish I could draw, and you fucking pegged it. It's all Commander Mark's fault. "Draw draw draw, practice your drawings, at least 30 minutes a day." Well, you right bastard, I DO practice my drawing, every single day, and I all I can get myself to doodle are your friggin' cubes!

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[User Picture]From: gatheringgloom
2001-01-30 01:18 am (UTC)


i found a few letters to myself. i viewed them as a measure of how far i've come in my life, and how much i have grown. while at the time i wanted to stay the same person, the person who read the letters was a good deal happier in life. change is vital.
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